Monday, March 30, 2015

Adulting

Called the doctor's office and made myself an appointment. All on my own. It actually wasn't as difficult as I expected it to be, possibly I did it wrong.

Anyway, I'm sure I sounded like a complete moron during the conversation, but whatever. At least there was no small talk.

Although it will mean I will have to go into town twice this week, but oh well.

Saturday, March 14, 2015

At a bit at loose ends

So this week was pretty much shit.

Monday especially so.

Though I did get three work days this week, and felt completely wrong-footed the whole time. Yay.

Unexpected schedule changes are so fun (but not really). I really have no problem with working with a whole class of students, as opposed to just one or two at a time, but they literally rarely tell me specifically what to do so a lot of the time I just end up floating around the room worried that I'm doing it wrong.

That and I have very little confidence in my authority over most of these kids and they goddamn well know it.

The only real way for me to work through this is to just stick close to certain children and help them one-on-one, or in very small groups. The problem with that is that I'm not sure that that's actually what I'm supposed to be doing?

Seriously though, why can't these people just leave instructions behind?

So it's been a weird week, anxiety and second-guessing like whoa.