Day 4 of the vacation and I am so ready to be home.
Somehow when I thought about what was going to happen on this trip, I never even considered the lack of independence that would happen. I mean, I still live with my parents, but I have my own money and car and am basically free to come and go as I please. Here, I have to rely on other people taking me around if I want to go places, which is a bitch because it's a lack of control I'm finding really hard to deal with.
Take today, my brother was supposed to take me downtown but I haven't heard back from him in hours. How am I supposed to prepare myself for an outing when I don't know when or if it's happening. Add in the fact that I'm supposed to get a meal in me at some point that just makes everything even worse. I am not in control of when I eat here either, not really, not my kitchen, not my house, not my food. Sooooooo... stress.
(Also I'm having movies playing HD movies on my tiny-ass laptop, so if anyone knows anything about that, please send help.)
Another thing I haven't considered is what it would be like staying in a house with small children. I haven't actually stayed over at anyone's house for any length of time in years, especially one with kids. My brothers are only three years younger than I am so we were all kids together. My two cousins are 10 and under, and sometimes their friends show up. So that's a lot more kids than I'm used to hanging around. It's a lot louder than I'd have expected as well, although that may be because my youngest cousin is possibly insane.
Anyway spending the Christmas season with children will also be a different thing considering that a lot of the fun around Christmas is mostly for children. So that will be different. Also Christmas dinner has the potential to be stressful as all hell because extended family will be there that I pretty much never see ever. So that's something else to angst over. Also I will be missing seeing the usual family members I see at Christmas.
Tuesday, December 22, 2015
Monday, December 21, 2015
Greetings, Also It's Fucking Freezing Balls Up Here
SO I'M IN ALBERTA! YEAH!
Spending Christmas on the other side of the country, woo. There may have been a minor breakdown at one point, but other than that things are pretty fine.
We flew out on Friday (the plane was actually the most relaxing part of the trip, go figure) and we landed at arse o'clock in the morning (it's three hours behind up here, so however late we landed here it was even later, fuck everything). Also it is fucking freezing up here, like minus double digits freezing. Much colder than it was back home. Fuck winter, seriously. My lips chapped pretty much the instant we landed and have been cracked and bleedy ever since. I thought to bring hand cream, but not chapstick, because fuck my life.
Also we're staying at my aunt and uncle's house, which HELLO ANXIETY!! So I haven't really been sleeping all that well, so I'm gonna have to re-start the sleep training when I get home so I am better able to function. Actually my ability to function and people like a normal human being as been a bit hit and miss in the past few days. Finally getting some use out of that necklace I got from Space Robot Studios, so there's something. Not that anyone's paying attention or anything, but whatever.
My two cousins here are 8 and 11, and they are very social. Fuck me, basically.
So it's pretty fun seeing the area for the first time. And seeing where one of my brothers live. Also it's pretty entertaining being so close to malls and stores and restaurants and things. I've already blown mucho $$ since I've been here (also I bought some books, which I told myself I wasn't gonna, because plane, but OH WELL FUCK IT MORE BOOKS FOR ME) (also I got a manga version of Les Mis which is hilarious and there was no way I was passing that up). Also the Spencer's and HMV up here is expensive but I STILL WANNA BUY EVERYTHING BECAUSE SO MUCH NERD SWAG OMG. Two pairs of pyjama pants later... also hats... and socks... so far... SO MUCH NERD SWAG.
Also my brother's new puppy, who is adorable and also a little shit. But puppy, so whatevs.
So this will be my first Christmas away from home, also first Christmas without Nanny (we'll see how long it'll be before someone brings that up on Christmas Eve/Day). That will be a change.
Anyway, it's the third day here and already I'm ready to go back home... what even is my life?
Spending Christmas on the other side of the country, woo. There may have been a minor breakdown at one point, but other than that things are pretty fine.
We flew out on Friday (the plane was actually the most relaxing part of the trip, go figure) and we landed at arse o'clock in the morning (it's three hours behind up here, so however late we landed here it was even later, fuck everything). Also it is fucking freezing up here, like minus double digits freezing. Much colder than it was back home. Fuck winter, seriously. My lips chapped pretty much the instant we landed and have been cracked and bleedy ever since. I thought to bring hand cream, but not chapstick, because fuck my life.
Also we're staying at my aunt and uncle's house, which HELLO ANXIETY!! So I haven't really been sleeping all that well, so I'm gonna have to re-start the sleep training when I get home so I am better able to function. Actually my ability to function and people like a normal human being as been a bit hit and miss in the past few days. Finally getting some use out of that necklace I got from Space Robot Studios, so there's something. Not that anyone's paying attention or anything, but whatever.
My two cousins here are 8 and 11, and they are very social. Fuck me, basically.
So it's pretty fun seeing the area for the first time. And seeing where one of my brothers live. Also it's pretty entertaining being so close to malls and stores and restaurants and things. I've already blown mucho $$ since I've been here (also I bought some books, which I told myself I wasn't gonna, because plane, but OH WELL FUCK IT MORE BOOKS FOR ME) (also I got a manga version of Les Mis which is hilarious and there was no way I was passing that up). Also the Spencer's and HMV up here is expensive but I STILL WANNA BUY EVERYTHING BECAUSE SO MUCH NERD SWAG OMG. Two pairs of pyjama pants later... also hats... and socks... so far... SO MUCH NERD SWAG.
Also my brother's new puppy, who is adorable and also a little shit. But puppy, so whatevs.
So this will be my first Christmas away from home, also first Christmas without Nanny (we'll see how long it'll be before someone brings that up on Christmas Eve/Day). That will be a change.
Anyway, it's the third day here and already I'm ready to go back home... what even is my life?
Friday, November 27, 2015
Werk
Yesterday was my first day of subbing as a TA for this school year. Bit later than in prior years, but I was at the lobster plant all September and most of October, so that's the explanation there. Anyway, both days were at the French school, but yesterday was just an hour and a half in the preschool and today was a full day (which is still only 5.5 hours, but hey, work is work).
So my first day at the preschool for the new school year is always fairly interesting. New names to learn, new kids to get to know. There's apparently 29 kids in the class this year (though they weren't all there yesterday, thank fuck) and I only knew two of them by name. And I always hear some weird new names every year, this year has probably the most. I'm pretty sure one of them was named after a video game character, so there you go.
It was a pretty fun afternoon, as soon as play time began, one of the kids took it upon himself to show me around the room (not the first time I've been at the preschool, but the first time with these kids) but he got sidetracked by the big Legos so we hung out there for a bit with some of the other kids. First time that's happened, and I had a good time playing with them. Usually at playtime I have no idea what to do so I just wander around the room aimlessly looking for someone who needs help, but this time I was actually interacting with the kids. It was a nice change.
Today was a full day, which went pretty much the same as any other full day I do while I'm there. It was really good to see all the kids again (though I didn't get to see the original preschool class I started out with back in my senior year of high school because they're upstairs starting this year and thus don't have much interaction with the elementary students, though I did see a few of them and I imagine that I'll wind up in their class soon enough).
Anyway part of my duties today, of course, included supervision in the cafeteria where I got to hang out (really, I'm a shit supervisor, I don't really do much unless the kids are really acting up, which they don't do much anyway) with the usual kids I end up in conversation with when I show up. And a lot of the kids were actually excited to see me. There were hugs involved, it's always surreal when that happens. Over the years there are always kids that get attached to me and are genuinely pleased to see me when I'm in and I can never figure out why. But whatever, it's always fun. And usually ends up being the most socializing I get done in a week. Far be it from me to question it.
Also I lost two games of Go Fish against two different groups of first graders, as you do. But at least I wasn't with the groups who were playing Trouble, because apparently things got a bit heated there.
So my first day at the preschool for the new school year is always fairly interesting. New names to learn, new kids to get to know. There's apparently 29 kids in the class this year (though they weren't all there yesterday, thank fuck) and I only knew two of them by name. And I always hear some weird new names every year, this year has probably the most. I'm pretty sure one of them was named after a video game character, so there you go.
It was a pretty fun afternoon, as soon as play time began, one of the kids took it upon himself to show me around the room (not the first time I've been at the preschool, but the first time with these kids) but he got sidetracked by the big Legos so we hung out there for a bit with some of the other kids. First time that's happened, and I had a good time playing with them. Usually at playtime I have no idea what to do so I just wander around the room aimlessly looking for someone who needs help, but this time I was actually interacting with the kids. It was a nice change.
Today was a full day, which went pretty much the same as any other full day I do while I'm there. It was really good to see all the kids again (though I didn't get to see the original preschool class I started out with back in my senior year of high school because they're upstairs starting this year and thus don't have much interaction with the elementary students, though I did see a few of them and I imagine that I'll wind up in their class soon enough).
Anyway part of my duties today, of course, included supervision in the cafeteria where I got to hang out (really, I'm a shit supervisor, I don't really do much unless the kids are really acting up, which they don't do much anyway) with the usual kids I end up in conversation with when I show up. And a lot of the kids were actually excited to see me. There were hugs involved, it's always surreal when that happens. Over the years there are always kids that get attached to me and are genuinely pleased to see me when I'm in and I can never figure out why. But whatever, it's always fun. And usually ends up being the most socializing I get done in a week. Far be it from me to question it.
Also I lost two games of Go Fish against two different groups of first graders, as you do. But at least I wasn't with the groups who were playing Trouble, because apparently things got a bit heated there.
Monday, April 13, 2015
Wednesday, January 21, 2015
Is the Weekend Here Yet?
I had a shite night sleep Sunday night, got woken up at dawn on Monday morning and have been sideways ever since.
Also I get the feeling that I might be coming down with something, but it also might just be physical manifestations of anxiety and good christ is that ever fun trying to figure out which is which (oh wait no it isn't).
I haven't been sleeping all that well at all lately and my anxiety has decided to stretch itself to include my bladder in on things (no infection, I checked) and DOESN'T THAT JUST MAKE THINGS WORSE OH MY FUCK. So now that's even more stressful, but not yet as bad as the sixth grade when I had to go at least once per class (yet, I am forever apprehensive about that).
Although I may just be emotionally exhausted. Also I'm fairly sure ringing phones are eventually gonna give me a stress ulcer because I get anxious as all fuck every time one rings near me.
On an upswing though, I got some new books in the mail yesterday, and there might be some more in tomorrow.
And why can't students present graphic novels for book reports anyway? I understand not doing it with Archie comics, but there are plenty out with long consistent story lines (like Raina Telgemeier's books) that would be great for book reports. Of course, those books weren't out when I was in school, though I had half a mind to read all of Hana-Kimi once and do that, though I didn't own it all in print at the time so I wouldn't have been able to anyway I guess. BUT I HAVE THEM ALL NOW MWAHA.
Also I get the feeling that I might be coming down with something, but it also might just be physical manifestations of anxiety and good christ is that ever fun trying to figure out which is which (oh wait no it isn't).
I haven't been sleeping all that well at all lately and my anxiety has decided to stretch itself to include my bladder in on things (no infection, I checked) and DOESN'T THAT JUST MAKE THINGS WORSE OH MY FUCK. So now that's even more stressful, but not yet as bad as the sixth grade when I had to go at least once per class (yet, I am forever apprehensive about that).
Although I may just be emotionally exhausted. Also I'm fairly sure ringing phones are eventually gonna give me a stress ulcer because I get anxious as all fuck every time one rings near me.
On an upswing though, I got some new books in the mail yesterday, and there might be some more in tomorrow.
And why can't students present graphic novels for book reports anyway? I understand not doing it with Archie comics, but there are plenty out with long consistent story lines (like Raina Telgemeier's books) that would be great for book reports. Of course, those books weren't out when I was in school, though I had half a mind to read all of Hana-Kimi once and do that, though I didn't own it all in print at the time so I wouldn't have been able to anyway I guess. BUT I HAVE THEM ALL NOW MWAHA.
Tuesday, January 13, 2015
It is I, Tuesday
So I'm pretty sure I fucked up that interview by being a complete nervous inarticulate spaz.
Which I kinda expected to happen... soooooooooo no real surprise there I guess.
My portfolio went over well, so there's something.
Watched the Golden Globes Sunday night and it was the first time I actually sat through and watched an entire award show without muting 70% of it, so there's something. I was entertained. The only real reason I watched is because Benedict Cumberbatch was going to be there, and I was not disappointed. That man is a gift, I swear. Getting excited for the Oscars now.
It's been snowing fairly regularly lately, so of course the roads are shite. I went into town on Saturday and the roads were snow-covered in spots because I guess no one had bothered to salt or plow the day before? Well done there. Though it wasn't nearly as bad as the day I had to drive home from work with inches of snow on the roads and snow still coming down while it was getting dark. Truly, the fun never ends.
Which I kinda expected to happen... soooooooooo no real surprise there I guess.
My portfolio went over well, so there's something.
Watched the Golden Globes Sunday night and it was the first time I actually sat through and watched an entire award show without muting 70% of it, so there's something. I was entertained. The only real reason I watched is because Benedict Cumberbatch was going to be there, and I was not disappointed. That man is a gift, I swear. Getting excited for the Oscars now.
It's been snowing fairly regularly lately, so of course the roads are shite. I went into town on Saturday and the roads were snow-covered in spots because I guess no one had bothered to salt or plow the day before? Well done there. Though it wasn't nearly as bad as the day I had to drive home from work with inches of snow on the roads and snow still coming down while it was getting dark. Truly, the fun never ends.
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